Too Busy Waiting

I have put off writing while I waited for 'it' to strike---motivation, inspiration, courage, certainty. I have been waiting for some wonderful insight to write about, a new victory, some old struggle that I suddenly and thoroughly conquer...

Instead....I am writing about the reality.

The reality is that sometimes I lose inspiration. I become discouraged, lose confidence in the plans I was sure God had for me. Sometimes I feel so weak, and the dream seems so far away, that I choose to ignore it instead of taking any steps towards it. Sometimes I doubt what I have to offer; I question what I once felt sure of; I don't like what the mirror reflects back at me; I am tempted to withdraw into a shell rather than live authentically and passionately.

Sometimes reality is drastically different from our dreams.

Sometimes we need rest, breaks, time to gather our thoughts.

But other times, we need to stop waiting on feelings, cease postponing our dreams and missions until we feel like it, until we consider ourselves good enough, until the risk is lower, until every doubt is erased, until that inner voice has confirmed for the fourteenth time what we really knew all along.

Sometimes our dreams aren't coming true, our mission isn't being accomplished, our task isn't being fulfilled---

because we are too busy waiting.